Neither here, nor there.
Due to several unforeseen circumstances where my studies are concerned, I am left in a place of uncertainty. Uncertainty with where I am to continue my studies and what I am to do in the mean time. I for one cannot stand the idea of not having a plan. Of not knowing where I'm going. I highly dislike the idea or the reality of being in a place of undetermined surety.
I guess it's because of a few reasons. The fear of the not knowing my future and what is to become of me and the restless of being unable to move forward.
There are days when I wish that I can foresee my future just so I'll be prepared to face whatever is to come my way. Also, it really soothes my anxious and rather foolish mind to cease overthinking.
I am one who can't stand being in one place for too long. Perhaps its because I like being doing something, being productive.I like keeping myself busy doing something at all times. My nature is such that I am not laid back and relaxed. Of course I do like a few moments to be still but not for too long.
So what does one do in the event that they are placed in vagueness?
Does one accept the circumstances and move forward even though the path may not be clear and straight?
or
Does one dwell upon the matter and hope for a divine intervention?
What do you think?
Hi Rachel,
ReplyDeleteDid you know that I was in that situation twice? Once, when I quit college for awhile because I hated studying (I worked part time while I sorted things out - I only graduated at 27 years old?), and then I resigned from a company I joined only for two weeks because I hated the job (I liked the company, just the position I applied for wasn't what I wanted to do)? People got the wrong impression of me. They thought when I ran into trouble, my first response was 'flight' instead of 'fight'. They thought I was a quitter. Now that I'm employed, even if what I do with my life is mine to question, I have to prove to people that I'm not a quitter. I'm actually not a quitter la LOL!
- Sheu -